The transition....

Well blogging after such a stretch of time is also a part of the transition that i am trying to catch up with... living at home, traveling for minimum of 2 hrs a day, working for nearly 10-12 hrs, desperately waiting for weekends to come, longing for those late night movies, freedom to come to your room anytime and in any form, attending classes in the worst of your attire, knowing every face that passes you and of all NOT wearing formals !! ... i miss them all and more so i "them" all.

The crude passion and raw energy has to be more structured now, hobbies have to wait and deadlines have to be met. It seems like a journey from a bird to an aircraft... very dramatic indeed!! This is what i long to do.. sit, think and crib about things happening around me.. be it good or bad.... cribbing or bitching whatever you call is a way i let out heat and feel really relaxed.. office doesnt give you time, parents dont give you space... every time i sit alone or ask to be left alone... i invite to myself unimaginable amount of extra attention.. exactly the opposite of what was desired... being back home after 5 yrs, parents want to really help me out :) .. so there i am.. really longing to bitch and BITCH about each and everything thats happening to me, be it good, be it bad.. and i am just not finding enough vent to let it out... this I realised is one of the biggest asset that college (read hostel) life bestows you with.. so i have resorted to crib mails, crib phone calls and crib chats (alliteration huh!... totally unintended.. i sometime hate when ppl try and use puns which only they understand or expect ppl to really rack their brains while they prefer waiting like fools anticipating the first sign of laughter... i simply prefer to pretend laughing and thinking how idiotic!.. i said i am venting it out !! so dont think of the flow of content because i havent really thought of what i am saying or would say... too big a bracket !!!).

I have discovered and rediscovered some "bitching buddies" (did u say alliteration again :-? .. i wont dwell more in to the philosophy of these words :P) and i bet it really relieves to say whatever you want to (on the lines of "Jab We Met" in a way). One wont believe it but by writing all this down i am feeling so much lighter... i have a flight to catch at night today to leave to Delhi and i can think of things in a new dimension now, would time and again bounce back on this space to paint more pictures (vivid pictures is it!) or plainly put to CRIB.