Déjà vu?

Some time back and frankly not that real far, it was just a minuscule thought, like a powerless insect that I could play with, smash, pull out limbs and dissect for sadistic pleasure and make fun of. I mostly thought of it as a thing light years away and something that I would be completely prepared to take head on once it came any closer.

I see it transforming from a innocuous little worm in to a despicable ugly creep waiting outside my door just waiting to barge in. I feel powerless. What could I do! I never thought all this would happen so fast. What makes it worse is most people, including the near and dear ones just don't see it the way I do. I have explained my point, argued it out, they seem to all agree but just the next moment as I look back everything falls flat and all I am left to do is wonder if I said something wrong and if there was another way to put it. Had it been someone else my conclusions would have been brutal, but these are the very people I grew up with and have been with all the while.

Though let me accept there are a few who seem to understand and appreciate my concerns but sadly even that offers no respite. I am torn between the multitude of opinions surrounding me, so much so that I at times wonder if what I was arguing for at the first place was my original concern at all.

There have been moments when I felt that it has all been sorted and I felt so more so because I could see the same not just through my eyes but also reflections of the same glittered in the eyes of the multitudinousness that surrounded me. I have embraced those moments with all my might but those moments have been few though that feeling I can never forget.